Archive for January, 2010


We’ve hit the 3 year mark.  Though we have had a couple breaks, some forced, some needed, it has been 3 years since this journey began.  And we’re still here.  We’re still waiting.  We’re still not sure this will ever happen.  We’re still trying. 

In the past 3 years I have…

become much closer to my husband

become patient (not by choice)

realized how much my dogs really are my furbabies

learned what infertility is

learned how painful infertility is

met some great friends through online support groups and blogs

learned anything and everything about getting pregnant

met a great RE

had an IUI

Peed on many many many many sticks

Actually saw some positive sticks

Was diagnosed with horribly bad luck and an ectopic pregnancy

Cried countless tears

Lost who I was really was

And [possibly] recently found myself again

and most importantly

realized some things I have no control over, and sometimes things just aren’t fair.


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There is nothing going on right now.  I start my new job tomorrow.  I’m looking forward to that.  We are still waiting until March/April to start trying again.  The plan, as of now, is to do IUI #2 in April. 

Questions for everyone-does having one successful IUI cycle raise the chances of having a successful second IUI cycle? 

Something tells me that one IUI cycle has nothing to do with another, but whatever.  Any hope will help.

I’m actually doing very well.  I feel like I’ve moved on from the ectopic pregnancy.  There’s nothing I can do about it, so I might as well do myself a favor, and not dwell on it.  My new job is my focus right now.  Hopefully it all works out well, and I love it.

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Happy New Year!

2010!!! When did that happen???  Last night we went out to LA and hung with my sister and her boyfriend.  We had such a fantastic time!  We started out at an apartment drinking, playing drinking games, and lots of laughing!  Then we went to http://www.redrocksunset.com/ and did the countdown there!  We stayed a few more hours and danced danced danced!! We left there and started walking down Sunset Blvd.  We ended up at http://www.melsdrive-in.com/.  Ironically we were seated immediately and then decided we had more than enough food back at the apartment and decided to head back there.  My sister’s boyfriend said as we were leaving “We are now leaving Mel’s, where people wait hours for a seat, and we had seats immediately.  But that was Mel’s Diner”.  haha!  The funny thing is, that when we got back to the apartment, a ton of people had shown up by then and there wasn’t any food.  But we stayed up drinking until after 4, and it was a great start to 2010.

In TTC news, we are cleared to try again this month.  But we are waiting until March because……drum roll please….. I got a new job!  I want to make sure my position and job are secure for when I go on maternity leave (I know I’m thinking really far in advance, but I like to be prepared, what can I say?)  so at least by the time my maternity leave rolls around, it’ll be about a year.  I’m really happy about my new job!  Its closer to home, its a significant pay increase, and I don’t have my crappy boss to deal with anymore.  I’m changing settings a little bit, as I’ll be working in a nursing home, but I think it will be a nice change and I really like the place. 

This last cycle was wacked!! Take a look at my chart, do you think I actually ovulated? My temps didn’t get anywhere near as a high as they usually do after O, and of course my cycle was 23 days? WTF?  Anyway, we’ll see if things normalize. 

Happy New Year to all!!!  Here’s hoping 2010 is a fanfreakingtastic year!! 

One of my friends(who survived and made it to the other side of IF) sent me a few songs that helped her get through some rough days.  My favorite was this one.  And I’ll leave you with this….

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