Its pretty hard to be optimistic. At the RE’s office yesterday, she said some things that gave me doubt that the IUI will work. She knows we are paying OOP and I’m hoping she said these things from a financial perspective. She was worried about us spending a lot of money on IUI’s so she told us to watch our dollars and stop if the amount gets too high. Because of course IVF has much higher success rate than IUI, which I am aware of. I asked her about our success rate with IUI, she said 10%. 10%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That sucks!!! IVF would have a 50-60% chance, which she also said. I know of many people who have had to try IUI for 2 plus cycles to get pregnant, so I am expecting to try 3 cycles. I think she is being cautious for us knowing that we shouldn’t try IUI for 5 or 6 cycles and them not work, and then be that much farther away financially for IVF. I don’t know what to think:(
She did say that she would know more about our success rate on Monday once she sees the sperm. So I’m really really really hoping we got lots of speedy swimmers!
I guess I was pretty discouraged since earlier this year she thought the sperm count and quality was up to a point that she thought we could get pg on our own. I figured if we could get pg on our own, then of course the IUI with meds would give us an even higher chance, I really wasn’t expecting her to say that IVF would still be our best option.
I’m just kind of discouraged today. We plan on trying IUI for 3 cycles, if that doesn’t work then we’ll probably review some finances and research insurance and see what we can do to try IVF. I’m worried about the economy and us not being able to get financed for IVF. I’m worried because Eric is approaching 40 and he doesn’t want to have children well into his 40s (though I think it would fine). I think it would take us awhile to save for IVF and he would be over 40 and who knows….
I know I am way over-thinking this. I know I’m thinking way too far into the future without even knowing how Monday will go yet. I know that its all out of my control. At this point there is nothing I can do to MAKE it work. I’ve prayed and I’ve been prayed for. I’m just scared that I will never be a mother.